gt back pw results. before tt, was tinking B is good enuf since last yr only 20% over gt A. but after hearing tt 82% gt A and i m one of those who gt B, i feel qte sad. yea, it's my fault tt i didnt do well for OP but still sigh. ltr was distracted by some pple.

this paragraph is dedicated for a particular sumone.
i noe tt ur class get all A for pw but it doesnt mean tt u can cum kaypo abt our class pw results. okay, asking abt the no of Bs in my class is okay but u DUN HAF TO ASK WHO THEY ARE. and ya before u asked ivy, u alrdy knew i gt a B coz u overheard it. yea, maybe u are happy abt it, who cares. u dun hafta ask for the names who gt B. though ivy didnt state out my name to u agn since u alrdy noe, ivy stated out the others. like as if u noe who they are. u arent tt popular okay. and pls can u haf a heart towards tt grp. IF U EVEN HAF A HEART. and it's coz of this i find tt u are kinda teasing those who gt B and u are very kaypo in case u didnt noe. so sad i wasnt beside ivy when u asked. if not, i will attitude u. (fyi i only attitude those i haf sth agnst) yea, i may suck coz i gt a B for pw but u really SUCK EVEN MORE. why did i even try to change my attitude towards u? why did i even try to be nicer, tinking tt i might be too mean towards u previously? why m i so stupid? why. and I SHALL TELL U IF U ARE READING THIS. tt i pon cca NOT coz i m feeling unwell. is coz of YOU. (and fyi agn, i nv do pon cca) and i m really sry to brian for fa xieing all the anger i gt coz of tt person, on him. who ask him to chase after us and ask us if we really cant go cca. how cum it wasnt u who chased after us. how cum u nv msg to ask y we nt gg cca. how cum u nv call to ask abt it. how i wish all these cld happen so tt i can really attitude u and hang the fone on u. i may be bitching ard now but i haf gt reasons. and i m nt the only one who feels this way. i shall not be the guai emily anymore if not i will juz get bullied agn. if u are reading this, pls reflect. pls really do.

okay set aside this issue. anw, me n zy decided nt to get the clique bag after tinking for a long long time. and yea, i was qte sian diao over my pw results though i expected a B but after looking at the pple ard me. i feel really damn sian. i appeared rather okay in front of pple, rather sad in front of closer frens. but when i reached home and saw my mum, tears juz flow down. it's no longer abt the 82% A in the cohort tt bothers me now, but more of me letting my parents down. i noe they placed high hopes on me, compared to my sis and bro. i noe tt yet i gt a B. i felt tt ive disappointed them. i tried to hide my tears yet they juz cant stop flowing down. i didnt even intend to cry, juz felt qte sad abt it but i juz cant ctrl myself once i reached home. i guess i always nit some chi ji before i can wake up. p6 my poor prelims results. olvl poor prelims results, sian diao chi results. and now this. yea, it's time for me to wake up.

i suck.
i'm not trying hard enough.
i suck.
i really do.